Monday, 20 October 2008

Thinking of my Dad...


I have just spent over an hour writing an emotional post about feeling low and realising it was because I am coming up to the anniversary of my Dads passing...  I wrote the post with honesty and all from the heart, I cried and wrote things I have never shared with another person... events of the run up to the sad day and how knitting through it all kept me sane, about the almost comic way people acted and behaved around this time.  Most of all though I wrote about the pain of missing my Dad and how my Mom has never actually acknowledged that I lost my Dad... The funny thing was the post never saved and I am just not able to write it all again without more tears...  So I will accept that things beyond my control for what ever reason choose for this post not to go out there and normal Suzie Sews show and tell will resume on my next post.

19 comments:

April said...

Thinking of you.

Hugs

April xx

Lazylol said...

Sorry to hear you are feeling sad, thinking of you x

deezie said...

I am so sorry for your sadness right now. I just had the 1 year of my mom passing, its so hard without a mom or dad, I will be keeping you in my prayers
deezie

OliverandOlivia.com said...

I am sending you a BIG hug from across the pond.

I lost my Dad on Christmas Eve and my Mum the month before my son was born. My son never got to meet his grandparents.

It never gets easier on those days, but children make the other days of the year a life worth living!

Shawn Mary

Kitty said...

Last week was the anniversary of my dad's death. It creeps up on you doesn't it? Thinking of you (((S))) x

Sew Create It - Jane said...

(((hugs))) It had been almost 5 years since my Dad's death and I still have difficult days. His last words to me were over the phone, "I'll call you back..." and I'm still waiting. I know how down you can feel and you are not alone. Take care!

nicolette said...

Thinking of you Suzie! Take care!

Sarah said...

Sending hugs and hope that the writing helped you.

Penny said...

Hugs to you Suzie.

dottycookie said...

I'm so sorry, Suzie. You're bound to be feeling down right now - try to be gentle with yourself. Hugs.

henali said...

A very emotional post. Give yourself permission to be sad. Take care.

French Knots said...

Sending my love.xx

Ragged Roses said...

Sending you my love and hugs. Take care, thinking of you
Kimx

shell said...

I'm so glad you wrote the post Suzie, its shows great courage and healing that you were able to verbalise the feelings. Don't worry that you couldn't share it with us - the edited highlights are enough for us to know your pain and send our love. Take comfort from the effort and emotion you expressed for yourself and take heart that there are many people that send love and healing across the e-waves. Xxx

Tracy said...

Hi, Suzie...So very sorry for you continued loss. We lose our dear ones physically, but they live ever in our hearts as long as we remember them :o) Thinking of you and sending ((BIG HUGS))

ethel and edna's tearoom said...

I know I'm late. Blame the lurgy. I hope you got through the day OK. Lots of crying, laughing and remembering the good times.
(((HUGE HUGS)))

LOUISE said...

For those of us who have lost a parent will already know some of those words you put down in type Suzie. I hope in the writing of them it helped you get through this time, and you managed some happy thoughts as well as sad. x

Thimbleina said...

I feel for you it is something that I struggle with at this time of year (My dad passed away the same year as I became pregnant with my eldest and he hadn't any grandchildren), I can imagine some of the things that you said in that post.
Sending you a big hug

Lesley said...

I've been feeling just the same about my Mum recently. Sending you (((hugs))).

Maybe it was good thing that the post didn't save? You were able to express some deep feelings and allow yourself to cry but now it's gone and you can take a deep breath.

Take care xxx