Wednesday, 3 December 2008

A winters tale...

Baby its cold outside...I was pulled out of bed yesterday by my two very excited little people...Mommy its snowed...So before it was 7.30am we pulled our boots and mittens on over our PJs and in the dark a snow man was built... We rushed around to get ready for school, as the car was snowed in, it was a crunchy, chilly walk to school.I remembered to throw my point and shot camera in my pocket so took a few snaps whilst I tried to miss being hit by snowballs. So this was our walk to school and back again as school was closed...So it was a day spent playing in the snow with warm up breaks of Hot Chocolate and marshmallows another play and then settling down to a movie with some popcorn, the blinds shut as we pretended to be at the pictures...One last play in the snow before bedtime then a deep hot bubbly bath to warm up our bodies before we curled up for a bedtime story. Happy children!
So a distinct lack of blogging from me at present, I thank you for the personal emails, a lot is changing around here at the moment, it is a huge transitional period for my family, I thank you for staying around and I apologise for the infrequent posting... with this change I find myself reflecting, listening to a whole different selection of music, and having good and not so good days. I guess I am changing also, maybe its just the next stage in life...I have a lot of planning and thinking and re thinking to do. The most important thing to me through it all is stability... My children ground me, they keep life flowing, moving on and seeing things through their eyes makes the world we live in an amazing place...So today at breakfast I was reading through a few story books for them and I came across this poem that I had squirrelled away in one of the books a while ago...it moved me to tears...I shall share it with you...
Before I was a Mom. I made hot meals. I had unstained clothing. I had quite conversations on the phone.


Before I was a Mom. I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got out of bed. I brushed my hair and teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom. I cleaned my house everyday. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to lullabies. Before I was a Mom. I didn't worry whether the plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom. I had never been puked on, pooped on, sat on, chewed on, peed on or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom. I had complete control of my mind, my thoughts, my body,and my life. I slept at night.
Before I was a Mom. I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried so hard. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a child sleeping.

Before I was a Mom. I never held a baby sleeping just because I did not want to put them down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could effect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone this much.

I never knew I would LOVE being a MOM.
Before I was a Mom I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between Mother and Child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom. I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every ten minutes to make sure all was OK. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the fulfilment and satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a MOM.

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I just have the poem, I do not even know who wrote it or how I came to have kept it... But it sums up my emotions about being a MOM. I promise some usual 'Suzie Sews' stuff soon, its a work in process at the moment...

Photographs.... various pictures of snow and children throughout the snowy day, and of course Archie the bunny who loved the company of the children playing...

19 comments:

April said...

a BEAUTIFUL post and your day sounds absolutely blissful

April xx

Kitty said...

Beautiful photos Suzie - it looks a lovely place to live. We've had no snow here yet - just icy windscreens and pavements.

Becoming a mum changed me for the better. And there have been so many further changes since then. I hope your changes make life better for you (((S))). x

Heart in the country said...

What a lovely poem Suzy and so true. Your day looked lovely and what a beautiful area you live in. Like Kitty we have only had icy winds and frosty windscreens.

kx

driftwood said...

a poem from the heart! xx

Melanie said...

Beautiful poem. My 13 year old baby still can make me rush straight to him when I hear his pain cry.

What wonderful weather you've been having. On the NW coast we've had some icy roads today but nothing as wonderful as real snow.

Hope you keep warm Suzie and have fun snowballing. It's the stuff memories are made of.

Tracy said...

Love the MOM poem, Suzie...Your days sound all over the place, which is good, exciting even. :o) I'm not fortunate to be a mum myself...at least not to a human baby, a cat-baby though ;o) Enjoy the snow...It snowed here too! Happy Days ((HUGS))

Sal said...

A lovely post and a lovely poem, Suzie.
Hope you are ok..big hugs xxx;-)

Jane said...

Beautiful photos of the snow and i love the poem it says everything about being a Mom.thank you for sharing it with us. I hope the changes you mention are helpful and happy. Jane x

periwinkle said...

Such a lovely poem and lovely pics too. We have had snow but it didnt lie, it's been mainly hailstones and ice
Lisa x

Nell said...

Sometimes I miss the snow.

mellyandrosie said...

So funny to see snow in your part of the world when summer has started here (not that it is that warm yet) Love the pictures of snow everywhere, what fun! I hope that your families transition period is not too hard and I really hope that everything is OK!! Love th poem - too true!! =]

moss stitch said...

As ever a lovely poem and a lovely post, Suzie. The poem pulled my heart strings too. Being a mum is so special, there is no other job like in the world: no pay, no pension, irregular hours, but I wouldn't have it any other way.
I hope the changes that are happening are for the best and make you happy.
M
xx

Thimbleina said...

Great poem - thanks for sharing

JuliaB said...

Lovely pics, lovely poem. And what a lorralorra snow!!! we have just had drizzle and freezing wind round here. x

Tea Time and Roses said...

Hello Suzie!

What beautiful photos! I just love photos of snow scenes and these are just lovely! Beautiful post indeed!

Smiles...

Beverly

French Knots said...

having just finished cleaning something unsavory from the bathroom floor, it's lucky that I love my children so much!
Hope the changes will, ultimately, be for the better. xx

modelwidow said...

What a wonderful day that sounds, and thank you for sharing the poem - written from the heart and it touches it too.

Caroline said...

What a great poem! I am sat reading it with a (clean!) panty liner stuck on my sleeve which my youngest has just pinched from my handbag and obviously thought would make a great accessory - you could add that as another verse to the poem!
Great snow too - all we had was some heavy frost!!
Hope all is going OK and you are making the best of this lovely time of year.
Caroline
xx

Moogsmum said...

That's beautiful Suzie :-)

I have terrible snow-envy!! We never get snow here - well maybe a couple of centimetres every fifth year! I long for my children to experience the deep crunchy snow and the strange snowy silence that I experienced as a child.

In the meantime, I will satisfy my yearning for snow via those more geographically inclined to have the white stuff :-)

Great photos!
xxx